Went
 to the opening reading of the PEN Festival.  First batch of writers 
reading was great, one Cambodian American woman read about a father 
saying goodbye to his daughter as he knows he's going to be killed by 
the Khmers.  A Russian writer spoke about a woman school principal who would tell off the kids for begging chewing gum from 
visiting foreigners, saying they were debasing themselves.  The principal was later fired for allowing the reading of
 an unauthorized writer.  The authors were good at reading, but was their 
writing as good as their reading?
I was really there to
 hear Jamaica Kincaid.  Her prose awes me.  So powerful and fluid.  Not a
 trace of sentimentality.  How does she do it?  From the moment she made
 her way up the stairs on the side of the stage, her whole person exuded
 pain.  That grand old dame, bend over by pain.  That interior pain that 
flows in her texts.  Is it the price paid to escape sentimentality?  She
 takes the microphone and tells of creating havoc when she was in school
 and always getting punished.  At the age of 7, she had to copy down 
books 1 and 2 of Milton's Paridise Lost.  "It ended up not being a punishment 
at all, I fell in love with its character, Lucy.  And later named a 
novel after her.  I'm going to read from book 2."
In the exchange of love between the reading performer and the audience, that's all she was prepared to give. She came fully prepared to disappoint her lovers' expectations. If she had given us a reading of her work, we would have loved her all the more for it. Her reading had a deep, beautiful stance to it. But it's a hard text to listen to, and the audience was fretting. She left, standing straighter in her brave loneliness.
Contributed by - - Arabella Hutter
